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Floating

I’d like to complain but I’m pretty happy and have several things to look forward to, for example:

• going home in a few weeks
• seeing my best friends
• going to the beach in august
• classes being over at the end of the month
• seeing Elyse’s baby bump and her new house
• being in the company of people who understand me
• seeing my sister and mother
• maybe getting a prize from San Diego
• giving Michael a hug
• sharing good books with people
• having no obligations aside from work
• my birthday
• not worrying about money

and several other things.

I wish I could watch this every day and have it inspire me the same amount.

High School Gifts

There are two valuable things I gained from high school aside from friends and creative skills. One was my math teacher paying me to quit a nasty habit. I quit biting my fingernails and he gave me twenty bucks. I still don’t bite. The second was also from a male teacher. In a lecture during English one day he brought to my attention that apathy is worse than hatred and I completely agree. I would much rather someone I care about loathe me than completely disregard me and not care about me anymore. Hatred is still a form of care. There’s one person in particular who has been completely apathetic towards me as of late, and I would rather them hate me than treat me this way without giving me an explanation. Thanks for giving me a few things high school.

Goodbye Dignity

Because of the financial situation I am in I had to do something embarrassing today. I felt like I lost a small piece of my dignity. It is silly, but its true. Tonight I am struggling.

It is hard to see fellow students get handed everything and not be bitter about it. I wish the ones that had plenty would share.